Alexis69

Had a lot to think about these past several weeks. I regret how things went down. How you didn't let me get a word in edgewise. I hate that you've tried to turn *my* friends on me. People I've known from childhood. Stop with the games. I'm right here, and I seriously hope you're reading this. You know my number. You know my e-mail. Hell, you know practically everything about me. I'm giving you the chance to come forward. The ball's in your court. What's your move?

Hopefully someone out there will read this and get back to me. Hopefully they'll have been through the same thing. Hopefully they'll know what to do. I'm starting to fall back into a deep depression and it's all because I can't figure myself out. We've all known for a long time(well, people who've been around me longer than two minutes anyway) that I'm lesbian. For quite a few years now, I've been thinking it's more than that. For a few years now I've been thinking "What if I was supposed to be a guy?" This thought has done nothing but get stronger to the point where I've actually been trying to research my options for FTM therapy, treatment

I'm finding out who my real friends are. I've been told that I'm a bitch by several people, but after I've asked how I'm a bitch, I get little to no reply. After asking for a simple "thank you," I'm realizing that some peoples' prides are worth more to them than friendship. I'm down two friends because of it. I regret nothing that I said, as it was all truth. All I have to say is that I feel sorry for how things went down. And so, I sit at home, broke and confused. I've been told in the past that I'm too internal with my feelings, so I tried to be more vocal. Yeah, that didn't go too well. I guess one could say that I'm bitter about this who